| Simba |
[Mar. 10th, 2008|11:50 pm] |
I miss my cat. It's been three months and all I can think is I wish I had been there for him at the end. |
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| Summer Life |
[Apr. 11th, 2007|11:02 pm] |
After all the things that have happened these past three days, it feels like much more time has elapsed than actually has. I've decided on my major, sketched out my summer plans, next year's course schedule, written a 10 page paper analyzing 11 different piece of music (half of which were sonata/ritornello form), and I found out my cousin is getting married.
I realized as I was sitting around the week that I need to declare a major. I need direction in my life, and in my collegiate studies. I thought about it and realized that I want to be out in the field doing something. So, I am double majoring in Geology and Enviromental Science. If I play my cards right, I may even triple major in Enviromental Policy.
Now, this is what fueled my summer plans - the originally tentative idea of figuring out my major. I will, hopefully, be attending the University of Minnesota Twin Cities for summer session. The courses I intend to take are Chemistry and Microeconomics, and possibly a third if I can manage it. These courses, assuming my academic petitions here at Lawrence pass, all go toward my major. I am still in shock at the decision I made. I'm not going to be home until mid-August if this all works out. I have no idea where I will live, and won't until I am registered. Registration opens to visiting students next Tuesday, you can bet I'll be one of the first to register. (Ironically, I won't know if my credits transfer until after I am registered. But, we'll see.)
There are a lot of upsides to living in the Cities for the majority of the summer. I will get prerequisites out of the way, I will gain some level of independence, and I will be living close to Adam. The last one is an undeniable advantage. I'm going to miss being at home, but I think this is a golden opportunity I need to snatch. |
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| Yay Memes! |
[Mar. 30th, 2007|07:11 pm] |
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| |  Why is everyone so dramatic!? | ] |
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A more LJ related meme than usual…
Comment and I will:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
8 - In return, you must spread this meme in your LJ [or blog]. |
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| Spring Term and My Sister |
[Mar. 26th, 2007|03:30 pm] |
Hey loves. You ever feel like you've hit the rock bottom of the mining shaft that is your life, the canary stopped singing hours ago, and then, from out of nowhere, there's a ray of sunshine so bright it almot burns because you haven't seen the sun in that long - only shadowy glimpses in the rocks you've touched in your stumbling? (Just to start with a fantastic run-on) Life's been a little like that lately. I only recently figured out what I want to major in: hopefully at least two of the following areas - Geology, Enviromental Studies, & Enviromental Policy. What compounds this decision is not knowing what I want to do, or even what I really love to study. So, I'm following my breath of fresh air - earth science - in the mining shaft of college and hoping it will lead to the outside and sunshine.
If only I could get a job writing florid metaphors, I'd be set for life.
I bought a new travel mug yesterday, it's all brushed blue metal and pretty. Perfect for tea.
As for classes, I'm taking Music History 202 to finish my music minor, Italian 201 to finish my language requirement, and Watershed Hydrology 430 for my proposed major. Fantabulous.
Restored draft from lord knows when:
{{I don't have a sister by blood, but I do have a friend who is definetly not just a friend but my little sister. She is, soon will be was, my next door neighbor in my childhood home. I remember when the elderly lady who owned the house next door put up the red for sale sign in her front garden, she kept the most beautiful gardens, and my mother said, "I hope the people who buy that house love to garden as much as she does." The Lipskys certainly weren't the avid gardeners the lady had been, but they had something that the lady didn't: a girl around my age. Wonder of wonders and miracle of miracles I had a friend. Hannah was different from anyone I had ever met before, she was bouncy, outdoorsy and very much an only child. She loved Mac and Cheese in those character shapes. She loved climbing trees. And most of all she loved legos. To tell the truth, Hannah hasn't changed much in any of those respects except that computers have taken the place of legos in her heart.
They gave away Puck.
Home isn't home anymore. College definetly is not home for a variety of reasons that are not polite to list or are too angsty to list. The last time, to tell the truth, that I felt like I was home, was when I was curled up with Adam. It wasn't home because it was where I grew up, or because I knew a bunch of people. It was home because the person I love is there. That's what falling i(n love will do to you).}} |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 18th, 2007|06:31 pm] |
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| | Kohler 612 | ] |
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| |  thoughtful | ] |
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| | De Ma Dame Vient - Adam De La Halle | ] |
THE LETTER A
Are you available?: Not for dating unless you are Adam.
What is your age?: 20
What annoys you?: Self-centered people who aren't aware and buzzing fluorescent lights.
THE LETTER B
Do you live in a big house?: I guess, right now I'm living in a dorm.
When is your birthday?: September 25
Who is your best friend?: I have several, none of which hear absolutely everything.
THE LETTER C
What's your favorite candy?: Dark chocolate.
Who's your crush?: Adam.
When was the last time you cried?: Last Saturday.
THE LETTER D
Do you daydream?: Often
What's your favorite kind of dog?: The cat kind. (West Highland White Terrier)
What day of the week is it?: Thursday
THE LETTER E
How do you like your eggs?: Scrambled.
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Yes, several times.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Sleep when you're next to someone you trust.
THE LETTER F
Have you ever flown in a plane: Many times.
Do you use fly swatters?: When there's a fly around.
Have you ever used a foghorn?: No.
THE LETTER G
Do you chew gum?: That I do.
Are you a giver or a taker?: A mix of both.
Do you like gummy candies?: They are yummy and scrumdiddilyumptious
THE LETTER H
How are you?: Not bad, though my lip still hurts from last night's wrench incident.
What color is your hair?: Brown
THE LETTER I
What's your favorite ice cream?: Daiquiri Ice Sorbet
Have you ever ice skated?: Yes.
Do you play an instrument?: Violin, piano, percussion.
THE LETTER J
What's your favorite jelly bean?: Pina Colada and Coconut together. Grape is also good.
Do you wear jewelry?: Yes, a silver puzzle ring and my faith necklace.
THE LETTER K
Who do you want to kill?: No one.
Do you want kids?: Very much so, just not right now. Maybe in 6 or 8 years.
THE LETTER L
Are you laid back?: Sometimes.
Do you lie?: Sometimes.
THE LETTER M
What's your favorite movie?: Amelie, Finding Nemo, Proof, Spirited Away, The Little Mermaid, Gandhi...the list goes on and on.
Do you still watch disney movies?: Heck yes.
Do you like mangos?: One word: delicious.
THE LETTER N
Do you have a nickname?: Les, Lez, Lezzie, Lezzie-Bear, Llama.
What's your favorite number?: 2 because it is a magic number.
Do you prefer night over day?: Depends.
THE LETTER O
What's your one wish?: To have a happy, fulfilling life/to make the world a better place for those that come after me.
Are you an only child?: No, I have a younger brother by blood and a younger sister.
THE LETTER P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: Right now I am not paranoid about much. Maybe the toilet spider biting my butt, but I got over that one when I was 5.
What are your pet peeves?: People who get into my personal space, adults who can't manage themselves but have the capability, self-centeredness.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: A sense of humor.
THE LETTER Q
What's your favorite quote?: Out beyond wrong-doing and right-doing there is a field of luminous consciousness. I'll meet you there. -Rumi and "If you never feel silly, you'll never feel great." -Fahrenheit 451
THE LETTER R
Do you think you're always right?: God no. There would be something wrong with the world if I was.
Are you one to cry?: Not usually.
THE LETTER S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: I love sunny days with puffy clouds, but I also love a good thunderstorm.
Do you like snow?: Mostly.
What's your favorite season?: Summer
The letter T
What time is it?: Time for me to do homework.
What time did you wake up?: 7:30AM
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: Last summer in July. It was nice and warm due to the other person in there.
THE LETTER U
Are you wearing underwear?: Right now? Yeah.
Underwear or Boxers?: As long as they are clean, I don't care. If they are dirty, boxers by far.
THE LETTER V
What's the worst veggie?: Cauliflower, point blank.
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Everywhere.
THE LETTER W
Worst Habit?: Touching my face, grammar naziiing (I corrected this quiz)
Where do you live?: In cities pretending to be small towns. After college I never want to live in one of these again.
What's your worst fear?: Dying.
THE LETTER X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Many.
Have you seen the x-games?: Nope.
Do you own a xylophone?: Yes.
THE LETTER Y
Do you like the color yellow?: It's okay.
What three things do you yearn for?: Love, fulfillment in life, peace for everyone.
THE LETTER Z
What's your zodiac sign?: Libra.
Do you believe in the zodiac?: Not at all, it is total bullocks.
Favorite zoo animal?: Lemurs or the tide pools *splosh!* |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2006|07:03 pm] |
There is something wrong with this world, something terrible, horribly wrong. It might just be with America, but I think it is an overall. Saddam Hussein was executed today. I don't know if I believe what happened was right. It bugs me.
Otherwise, life is normal-ish. Haven't really done much this break, still sick of my roommate and I'm scared that she may not be the best influence on my personality. Which is total crap, yet true. I really don't want to go back to school. And, reading through some old LJs, I complain a lot.
Christmas was good. The weather itself has been dampening. Fog all day, white sheets of clouds hanging overhead and no snow anywhere to hide the bleakness of the landscape. |
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| There is one thing that will always make me angry/sad... |
[Nov. 26th, 2006|03:39 pm] |
I feel like an idiot.
I wasted a perfectly good day yesterday. Yes, there, I've said it. I wasted one of my break days. I don't know how else to describe it. I didn't really enjoy visiting either of my friends, I didn't get to go shopping like I needed to, I spent a good deal of the day crying and still can't stop which is going to make me ever so sick, my mother thinks I got into a fight with my boyfriend because I'm so upset, and none of the plans I would have liked to work yesterday worked in any way shape or form. Part of me says, "Y'know, we all have those down days" and another part of me is just screaming at myself for how stupid I was and the calls I should have made, the people I wanted to see I didn't get to, and why, when I knew I had control over what I did, I let this happen to myself.
I can't say it is not a mix of things. Some of it is the same old realization that I won't be seeing Adam for weeks, and there is the possibility that we will only have a week together before I head off to school again. That was what got me started. And I didn't feel like I should impose upon him and call because he had said his family was doing stuff yesterday and deciding to put him before me I didn't call. I should have. There is mistake number one for which I'm having a hard time forgiving myself. Since I was already crying (this where my logic ran out the door apparently) I decided it would be a brilliant thing to start organizing the pages for the scrapbook about Kenneth. This led to me crying for two hours solid. It hit all over again that Kenneth is gone. Mistake number two: deciding to do activity guaranteed to unhinge me when I'm already unhinged. I ended up having dinner with a friends family when I didn't want to, I wanted to eat with my family. Another big mistake there. This was all yesterday.
The other things that have only added to this are as follows:
~Coming home to find out that a friend had died in a car accident and another person I know had died from complications of a bone marrow transplant.
~Finding out years after I was pretty sure Mr. McPhee hated me for leaving tae kwon do, and going from being his star student to not having the time to commit, that he tried to come to my high school graduation, so it turns out he still cares about me. (that's a big one right there. I was devastated when Mr. McPhee wouldn't even look me in the eye or really even talk to me, and to know that he still cares means a lot)
~My Italian class. It can go stick it where the sun doesn't shine.
So...yeah. On the bright side I have a picture of Eric gnawing at the top of a pineapple. That is my bright spot for yesterday. And it took place at around 11:30 in the evening. And it still doesn't make up for how crappy yesterday was. I let other people dictate my schedule. I shoudn't have. And as always, it just resulted in me being upset and not doing what I actually wanted to do. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 14th, 2006|02:26 am] |
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<td align="center">You date like you are 29 years old.
You are a dating pro. You've been around the block a few times and know exactly what you like and dislike in a partner. Usually you can tell after one date if you would date them again.
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td>
All my normal answers plus 6+ date equalled out to me being 32, aka looking for some life-committed loving. Funny thing was it gives out different ages for the same answers, just keep refreshing...maybe I just like playing with the system a teensy bit too much... |
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| A Letter To Moodle |
[Oct. 31st, 2006|02:52 am] |
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| |  angry | ] |
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| | Down Under - Colin Hay | ] |
Dear Moodle,
I have a serious bone to pick with you. When I say serious, I mean I have a dislike that borders on hatred for you, Moodle. Not only did I just get 35.6 points of 112 on your lousy quiz, but when I turned it in I thought I had done pretty damn well. About my only failing was the fact I forgot what park is in Italian. Hopefully, Moodle, your severe shortcomings will be made up for in points I get back because you are so very rigid. But I still am scared I won't be able to save my ass from this mess. On a better note, even if I fail this quiz, it only accounts for what...5% of my total grade. Not a total loss then. Okay, taking this all in the big picture helps. I can afford to do poorly on one quiz. That just means this quiz is it. But it is still frustrating the way you work, and in the end I feel it is not helping me learn Italian efficiently. So, if you would ease up a bit I'd really appreciate it.
Sincerly,
A Frustrated Italian Student |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 13th, 2006|12:42 am] |
Dorm politics are fun. I'm Wellness representative for Kohler Hall (meaning I get to be a health-thorn in everyone's side). Should be good times.
What else...
I am beginning to suspect that Gates is not a very good teacher. He gave me another of his twenty minute repetitive lectures in my half hour voice lesson today. Where does he get off doing this? |
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| The Ultimate Female Secret Revealed |
[Oct. 11th, 2006|04:19 am] |
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| | Kohler 612 | ] |
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| | Eagles - Hotel California | ] |
I have a little known secret, men, that you might want to know: every girl, by the age of 10, has planned her wedding. She already knows what color dress she'll be wearing (white, of course), what kinds of flowers will be there, who is going to be her maid of honor and bridesmaids (she will ponder upon these ladies for the rest of life, (or at least until she actually has to make the decision reality), fine-tuning the list of names as she ages and deciding who's an absolute bitch and gets to sit in the pews or not), the entire guest list (just when you thought you couldn't plan too far ahead), and worst of all she knows exactly who is going to be the groom. Female intuition at its worst, ladies and gentlemen. That is what this is. A fine specimen indeed. In fact, if anyone can remember there childhood plans for matrimony, I encourage you to share them here.
(I am currently trying to remember mine. I think they involved lots of family and roses.) |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 6th, 2006|04:59 pm] |
As I was walking back to my dorm, I walked through a wedding group taking pictures in front of the Chapel. The bridesmaids were wearing golden dresses, and the bride was in this gorgeous creme colored dress with gold embroidery detail on the short train. I love wedding parties. They make me smile.
This is the front of the Memorial Chapel, sans roof:
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| *Birthday Dance* |
[Sep. 25th, 2006|08:33 pm] |
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I turned twenty today, nothing too exciting, nothing too boring. Most of the real celebrations will be happening when I see people in about a month...
But I'm still 20! |
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| Choir Audition |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|04:38 pm] |
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| [ | Current Location |
| | Kohler 612 | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | tickled pink | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Brahms' Requiem | ] |
Mr. Bjella told me, after I finished singing the audition piece for LU Choirs, "That is one of the best ending phrases I have heard on that piece all day." That one little compliment means so much to me.
Arrrrr...*piratey noises* |
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| Yayness! |
[Sep. 14th, 2006|03:47 pm] |
So, after years of needing to do so, I finally did it: I got my driver's permit today.
I haven't yet been behind the wheel of a car, but I can legally learn to drive! |
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| Brunette Inside and Out |
[Sep. 1st, 2006|09:47 am] |
Your inner hair color is brunette.
On the inside, you're mysterious and alluring. You're more likely to ask personal questions than reveal personal information. Your inner self has really nice eyelashes, and you know a good wink is worth a thousand words. Emoticons bug you, because ; ) is such a poor substitute for the real thing. If you're attracted to someone, you'd rather share 30 seconds of intense eye contact than spend an hour chatting on IM.
37% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.
Sadly my outer self is stuck with normal eyelashes. Pity. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 31st, 2006|01:01 pm] |
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I don't know what to write, but I feel like I should. Life has been sort of quiet in the way life has a habit of being. I'm cleaning still, my wrists are marginally better, and I've never been more sad when a summer has begun to close. It feels like the town is slowly emptying of people as they migrate to their respective colleges. I have a hundred or so pages of a memory book to put together for the Ramage family in this next week and a half with little motivation beyond sheer pick my ass out of self pity and do it determination. That would also be why my room will be clean when I leave for college again. I desperately want to return to a clean room for Thanksgiving. I guess on the up side of things, my desire to eat myself out of any sort of depression is slowly dissapearing. Though if I intend to have a balanced life I need to become more involved on campus this next year than I was this previous year. I'm thinking of dropping music theory and switching gears to the sciences (my only fear being that I will end up an English major). And as ridiculous as it sounds, I've been crying over someone close to me moving away. That would be why I'm cleaning. It keeps my head clear.
This last weekend I visited my boyfriend's grandparents with him and his father. I had an amazing time. But I cried myself to sleep the first night there be cause visiting his grandparents, seeing how they interact with other people, it brought back a lot of old and painful memories that I have been actively avoiding. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 11th, 2006|10:28 am] |
 | You scored as III - The Empress. The Empress is a maternal symbol. She is the mother figure who loves, nurtures and protects.
She will protect you, she will always be there when you are in trouble. When you fall over and graze your knee, the Empress will kiss it better.
Yet she is not a weak figure. Her compassion is strength. If her children are threatened she will stop at nothing to protect them. If well aspected in a Tarot spread, the Empress can symbolise security, protection and unconditional love. If badly aspected it can represent over-protectiveness, fear of risk taking and refusal to face the real world.
III - The Empress | | 100% | VIII - Strength | | 81% | XVI: The Tower | | 81% | I - Magician | | 75% | XIX: The Sun | | 75% | II - The High Priestess | | 69% | XI: Justice | | 69% | IV - The Emperor | | 69% | VI: The Lovers | | 63% | 0 - The Fool | | 63% | XIII: Death | | 56% | X - Wheel of Fortune | | 56% | XV: The Devil | | 38% | </td>
Which Major Arcana Tarot Card Are You?
created with QuizFarm.com |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 27th, 2006|11:03 am] |
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Last night a good friend of mine, Kenneth Ramage, was killed in a bike accident. He was out doing door-to-door campaign work on his bike when he was hit by a car. He died early this morning of internal bleeding. |
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